Blast From the Past...

So I was looking through some of my old blogs on Myspace...and I found this one...I think it's one of the best ones I've wrote...check it.

So here is what's on my mind...{deep breath} here goes nuthin...

Ok so...I like this guy, but then I don't like this guy. I mean...we cool...I guess{grrrrr!} But he can make me so MAD at times! Like I dunno...the stuff that I thought was cute in the beginning...just isn't so cute anymore. I mean, it was cute at first when he would hit me up on AIM and say "I just wanna talk to u"...and then all he would do was ask me questions about me and my day. But now I'm just like "u wanted to talk so start talking!" LOL. I dunno...I never really was good at this whole "relationship" thing.

Question...If two people were friends and then u start likin each other, do u have to start to get to know each other all over again? Or can u just continue getting to know each from what u already know?

I also wanna point out, that I have stated on numerous occasions, that I{at the present time} am not that emotionally stable to be dealing with him and this "relationship" or whatever u wanna call it. So why does he keep pressin me about it? It just aggrevaties{sp.?} me and then, he wants to get all hurt when I tell him that I am mad at him. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

Also...if u already have a pre-conceived answer to a question that u wanna ask me, DON'T ASK ME THE QUESTION!!! Because, when I answer it, if it's not the answer u were expectin{and more than likely it won't be} u are only hurting yourself.

"Guess it's bout time I find another love
Messin wit this nigga got me fallin apart,
I don't wanna be someone I know I'm not."

And another thing...just because I might be a little short with u at the moment, DOES NOT MEAN THAT I AM MAD AT YOU. It just means that u caught me at a bad time. So please...don't ask me if I'm mad at you. TRUST , you will know, when I'm mad and when I'm mad at you.Asking me if I'm mad at you when I'm not only makes me upset with you.

And please, spare me the bullshitty ass line about "he's a guy, he isn't on the same level as you." FUCK THAT! LOL...that is sooooooo not an acceptable excuse.

Question: How do tell someone that you think you guys were better off as friends?

Gosh, I just wanna go back to school and get away from all this bull! And why is the universe screwing with me anyway? What did I do?

10: the number of times I have re-played "No More Tears" by Teedra Moses on my IPod since I started this damn blog.

I'm through with this. I don't wanna get married and I don't want kids so...why am I even going through all of this? It's just gonna wind up at a dead-end anyway so...why deal?

11 times...

I just don't get it. And now I'm all teary-eyed and such cuz I feel bad. WTF? Seriously, I have been going through this for like 6 months now, and I'm spent! No mas. Finito{sp.?}.

12 times...

To a certain person who inspired this long ass, angry, confused, rant and rave blog of mine...we really need to get it together cuz there will be "No More Tears" for you. That's gotta go...one way or another. DUECE!


Man...if ya'll knew the story behind that 1! LOL...well until next time!

Live.Love.Life.

Rainy Days...

I don't know what it is about the rain...but it makes me all sentimental so 2day, I compiled a list of all the things that I am missing right now...so without further ado:

I MISS................................
My Grandma *R.I.P.*
Thee BFF
LA
Laughing till my sides hurt w. the Roomie
Having more time to chill
My Neicey-Poo Raven
My big Baby Devin
Walks around my hood to clear my head
Chillin w. my aunties
Dancin in my room in my undies=)
Movie nights
Churchin it
Denny's
Fatburger
My Right Brain
Work{that's right...I like my job!}

Live.Love.Life.

What A Rehearsal...

So...I'm in this play for school{Threepenny Opera...Davage Auditorium...Feb 28-Mar.1} and it is thee most DRAINING play I have ever been in! How is it that the lead character does not kno all of his lines and his blocking yet??? The play was originally supposed to open in NOVEMBER! WTH???? Then, how is he gonna come into rehearsal 2nite and try to take charge, give people notes about their lines, and then tell everybody they need to pick up the pace...and then get up in the next scene and halfway know his lines and his blocking! Then instead of singing his song gonna tell us he's not singing it because he "doesn't feel like it". I looked at a castmate of mine and was like "O word???" I see people are tryna get all "Halle Berry" on us and act new in 08...and that's cool...if you know your lines. But if you don't...and he clearly doesn't...then he needs to sit down, shut up, and take notes...cuz he def. got ripped a new one by a few people 2day. *smh*...tryna be brand new...HA!

Sorry bout that...but i just had to vent.

I Swear This My Last 1 2nite...

LOL...I so wish we still had Oxygen so I could watch Bad Girls Club. This chick Tanisha is hilarious! Peep the vid...



...Hahahahahahahahahahahaha

My 3rd Post Of The Day...Random Is The Word.

Yeah...I'm a little bored. LOL.

So anywayz...I am definitely feeling life right now! I have great friends{ya'll kno who ya'll b}...I'm doin good in my classes{so far...i'm startin to lose focus *smh*}...I got my internship for the summer...got offered a great oppurtunity at a Tony Award Winning theatre Company during my senior year...my play is almost over{knock on wood}...I'm stage manager 4 my school's production of Fences...Spring is almost here...summer's around the corner...Obama is kickin butt all over the U.S...I'm goin to Kanye's concert on May 4th...The Writer's Strike is finally over{R.I.P. "Girlfriends"}...Janet Jackson's album drops soon...and I'm genuinely happy. Moments like these make me smile...=). LOL.

I've also gained a new angel in my corner R.I.P. Aunt Jos 02.14.08..."I'll kno we"ll meet again so it's never me against the world"

I also wanna thank my "motivation"...even tho I hate the song..."you make me better"...I hope you come out of your slump soon.

...I'm glad I took a breather.

Live.Love.Life.

My Newest Addictions...

1. Blogging{"My name is Jennifer and I'm a blog addict" "Hi Jennifer" HA!}
2. Reading other people's blogs
3. Disney movies{not really new...but since I recently bought The Jungle Book and Aristocats on dvd, I felt I shud add it...don't judge me.}
4. My new Pac-Man game that hooks up 2 my tv
5. Downloading and listening to mixtapes 4rm independent artists 4rm Cali {shouts 2 FSC, Lite, Skeme and Casey Veggies}
6. Cinnamon Roll Ice Cream 4rm Ben and Jerry's with whipped cream on top. {mmmmmm....}

JANET JACKSON!!!!!

So this post needs no freakin intro but...word on the street is Janet Jackson's new album "Discipline" is hittin stores 02.26.08!!!!!! Those of you that kno me already kno...if i dnt get it the day b4...I will most def have it the day of! I cnt wait for the tour cuz I WILL be there! LOL.

And peep the track on my page...I found it on imeem...supposed 2 b on Discipline...I love it=).