It's Over!!!

After 5 long months...it is finally over!!! My play "Threepenny Opera" has finally opened and closed! I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my chest...LOL...I was breathin all extra deep yesterday...haha. But as happy as I am 2 c it go...I am sad 2 c it go. I made a lot of good friends with the cast...I mean...we went thru hell{literally} and back 2gether. We were strong for each other when we cudnt b 4 ourselves...I'ma really miss my backbone...but I kno we still got each other.

On another note...the cast party was...a nite of alcohol and truth...haha. Didn't start drinkin till 3 in the mornin...got back 2 my room at 7...n bed by 7:20...up at 11:30...*smh*...can't wait till the next 1! LOL.

And if ya'll haven't noticed...I'm me again! Yep...the dark days are over! It feels so good to be myself...and with that bein said...it's time to clean house! I'm sayin bye to a lot of things that are no longer needed in my life...and that does include a few people.

But there's this guy...I love him...

He motivates me so much...but I just don't kno if we're meant 2 b...at least 4 right now...heaven only knows...

I have so much runnin thru my head right now...sorry if this thing is random...well actually...I'm not...nobody reads this anyway...

"The world keeps burnin..." sorry...got erykah flowin thru the headphones.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy and that we shud have ended what we had so long ago...but then I think about how it feels when we're together...and how he makes me 4get all my troubles...and I never have 2 doubt him making me smile...even over aim...but at the same time...sumtimes I feel like with us...love isn't enough...

Maybe it is better that we break 4 a sec...get ourselves 2gether...and c what else the world has 2 offer us...then if it's meant 2 be, we'll appreciate each other more cuz we'll kno wat it feels like to b with and without each other...but 2 say goodbye 2 all that we've shared...he knos more about me than anybody else...it hurts just thinkin about it.