Mama May Have...

Growing up, I was always the child that had to work for everything she got. Clothes, I started buying for myself at the age of 12....with the exception of church clothes. If there was a certain pair of shoes that I wanted that WEREN'T sold in Payless...I bought for myself. Books, accesories, cds, and anything else my parents felt I didn't need, I had to save and buy myself. It wasn't until 9th grade and after 9/11 I was allowed to get a cell phone...and that was prepaid...like seriously...that thing still ran on "Units". The point I'm trying to make is that my parents raised me...some would even say forced me to have to fend for myself if I wanted something. My little sister however, has had her freakin life spoon fed to her with a silver spoon. It used to bother me and it still kinda does bother me because I feel like I go above and beoyond in school, always stay out of trouble(well...I make sure I don't get caught), and always mindful of my parents...yet I always get the leftovers. and since I've been in college it's definitely gotten worse. And everytime the issue of money is brought up, my parents always get on me about my "spending". Like I'm always asking them for money. Let's get one thing straight right here and right now: I have held down the SAME job for the past 3 YEARS, work every chance I get, and have only asked my parents for money TWICE my entire college career(and they never put money in it). Then after I've worked hard and accumulated some sort of "spending money", they try to regulate on what I spend MY money on...yet my sister might as well cut both of her arms off and sew one in my mother's pocket and the other one in my father's pocket because it's always in there. Not to mention the fact that after having her L's for 6 months, the buy her a brand new car AND pay for her gas. Then they wanna turn to me and say "money is tight"...like I'm spending it! and don't get it twisted...they are no longer paying for my college education...I'm the one thats 30,000 bones in debt right now with school loans.

So with all that said...and including recent events that have happened to me in the past few days(another blog for another day), I've realized that certain people that claimed to "have my back" don't really have it, so now I've been forced to act accordingly to look out 4 numero uno. I'm movin up in the world...WITHOUT them.

"Mama may have
And papa may have
But GOD bless the child that's got HER own
Tha's got her own."