Reflecting(Emo Post)...

There is something about LA that always makes me think of you first. I can still remember the first day I met you and I just knew that we were destined to be more than just friends. I wish that I could go back in time and take advantage of the moments that we did have...I just didn't cuz I thought we'd always have another. You were the first person I ever cried over...and the tears lasted all day. I can honestly say that I didn't know what love was until I met you. I used to love how we were so much alike...yet different so we could still learn from each other. Being back home has been extremely hard for me so far...because the moment I landed in LA, I feel like my heart has been trying to pull me in your direction...I wonder if yours is doing the same...I seriously doubt it...but I still wonder. I was able to use school and my work as a scapegoat for my feelings this past year/semester, but this summer...Idk. Right now i'm questioning my reasons for not just letting you go and I can't decide if it's because we are meant to be or if it's just because I'm afraid of the one I'll meet if you're out of the picture. You showed me what it was like and what it felt like to be passionate about someone. And I haven't experienced that type of passion since I let you go. I know that I'll be seeing you soon...lowkey I hope that your breath stinks or you have some sort of huge pimple on your face so that I can walk away saying "I am soooooo over that." But anyways...today is your day...and I wish you nothing but total and complete happiness...even if I do selfishly wish it was with me.