Just a piece I wrote over a year ago describing me.

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I Am
I am
Trustworthy and kind
Loving
Caring
Overbearing
And non-sharing.
I am
A believer
A thinker
A self-motivator
And one who never minds imitators.
I am
Strong and fearless
Yet I fear the unknown
I hate to walk alone
Yet I do so often to clear my head.
I am
Ever-changing
Ever-creating
Ever-understanding of the things most don't
Always wanting more than the average.
I am
Powerful in my own right
Never afraid of a fight
Always trying to change
Hateful of things that stay the same.
I am
Afraid of hurt
I don't believe in crying
And I hate admitting the obvious
Especially to others.
I am
One who hates to see my loved ones in pain
So much so that I won't even visit my own family members in the hospital.
I crave positive attention
I like to color in my Sesame Street coloring book till my hand starts to cramp
I love working with kids
Even though I don't want any of my own
Yet I'm sure if the right young man asks me,
I'd be more than happy to oblige.
I am
More than a conqueror
And believe that everyone can be saved if they really want to be
I am
More than what meets the eye
But you'll never completely know me
Even if you tried.
I don't say this because I'm trying to sound "stuck-up" or "bourgisie"
I say it because I learn new things about myself everyday
I am
Somewhat jealous of my younger sister
Because she always gets what she wants
But sometimes I feel sorry for her
Because she doesn't know what it feels like to work for something
I am
The friend that always has good advice
But is too stubborn to swallow her pride and take it herself.
I am
A body of knowledge and experiences
Who believes in sharing these things with others
I hope to someday change the world with my spirit
Like Fred Hampton, I know that "I am a revolutionary"
I am
Sub-concious about myself
And sometimes use my sense of humor
To overcompensate for my insecurities.
I believe in giving back to my community
And being the voice of a neighborhood
I am
An avid churchgoer
When I am at home
Not because I believe that there is always a blessing in the message
But because I believe their is a blessing in my interactions with others.
I feel that colors mean happiness
And that black doesn't always symbolize death
Sometimes it stands for a person who is unsure of themselves
And black represents a blank slate that can be shaped into anything
Because
Black goes with everything
Except for brown-at least that's what my mother told me
But I've seen it work
I am
Made in God's image
So why do people continue to judge me based in my skin color
I wish for unimaginable things
Like world peace and intraracial equality.
I tend to question things
That no one has the answers to
And get frustrated when they can't answer them.
I hope for a better tomorrow
Even if today was worse than yeaterday
I hate when people misinterpret my personality
Or think I'm mean when I'm not smiling
I am
An actor
I love the stage
And would marry it if it were legal.
I am simplistic yet complex
And describle my life as beautiful chaos.
I hope to one day be a Tony Award winning actress
Like one of my many role models Audra McDonald.
I think I'm in love with someone who doesn't love me back
I am a
Goal-oriented
Semi-organized
Young woman
Who still believes in fairy tales
Who was blessed with a "good life"
But still has her own "crosses to bear"
I believe in Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior for without him
I would be much more insane than I am right now
I hate when my hair isn't done to my perfection
I'm still learning how to work well with others
I believe that "honesty is the best policy"
And hate when people lie on me
I am
Not-perfect
Even though I try to be
I am
Simply
Not finished.