Catharsis...

With age comes knowledge and with knowledge comes change....



I feel like life is taking me on an incredible journey of thought right now that is beyond any type constant recognition...if that makes any sense. I think that I am now learning/seeing/experiencing everything through different eyes. I see people for what they are and treat them accordingly. I see those that support me and love me and I see past the fake. I sadly feel that my biggest supporters in my life have passed on...but that doesn't mean that I'm not thankful to those that are trying their best to support me.

I've stopped trying to see more of people than they are willing to offer because I've found that to be frustrating and hurtful on my end. I'm taking people at the value they are offering themselves as. I feel that in certain situations I am too giving of myself only to have people be upset b/c I didn't do what they wanted me to do....yet they asked me to do it because they couldn't. I'm leaening that the older me, the more experienced and voiced me isn't as well recieved the quieter underage me that I was before. And that's finally ok with me. Because 1 thing my two biggest supporters taught me was to always love me. And I do.

...hope this made sense to someone other than myself.