Music Monday *Bonus*...

So I kmow last week I didn't have a Music Monday post...buuuuuuuut...that was because I was actually recording a song of my own. Lol.

So here's the story. Me and 2 of my BFFs Adri and Jazz were hanging in my bf's studio and started randomly freestlyin around 1 in the am...anyway...somehow we came up with the idea to rap like "doo-doo"'s preety much makin fun of that whole trend and this, was the finished product...

Ode To Doo Doo Mamas


Lmfao...I still laugh my ass off listening to this. I love my friends:)

Music Monday...

Today I wanted to leave u guys with music from a few artists whose music makes me smile. I'm talkin about just a simple cheese from my mouth...but a smile that comes from the inside out. A smile that my soul feels...a smile that happens no matter how many times I hear the song. All three of these songs take me back to happy light and airy spring days...enjoy.


"Voyage To Atlantis"-The Isley Brothers




"Zoom"-The Commodores




"Golden Time of Day"-Frankie Beverly and Maze




....hope you guys are smiling too:)

To Whom This May Concern,

I never asked to be your burden. What you did shows me what I knew but refused to believe all along...u never really cared. All those lies you've told me...wasn't to spare me and mines...but to help you sleep better at night. Never once have you even stopped to think how my life is right now...all you see is me "living easy" not once realizing that my happiness faded months ago.But its cool... you're always so willing to talk when the damage is already done and I'm so over it that it doesn't matter to me anymore. Just once, I wish you see me for the person I am and address me accordingly. Maybe then you would see that some of the shit you do is stupid and hurtful. The saddest part of this in my eyes, is that your actions prove to me that you have no idea who I am as a person. But...in all honesty, I take some of the blame in that...because I've known for years that you've had no idea who I am and never tried to speak with you about...I just figured you'd come up with another one of your lies to excuse your behavior instead of just admitting the truth. So for now...no I don't wanna talk...maybe when I calm down we can discuss things...but then again...how will I know you'll actually tell me the truth?

...And Its Far From OVER

Finally got a chance to see the new vid...




...I fucking LOVE it! Its def makes you wanna go hard on life....and considering I litterally have been everywhere and back these past few days...this had me hyped as hell! Off to work I go! Lol.

I cnt even type rite now I'm so fucking livid. So just kno that from this point on I dnt give 2 fucks abt anybody but me.

Music Monday...

...well sunday if you're still on the West Coast. But anywho...so I think that every Monday now I wanna do a "Music Monday" post. I won't be doing on just new music that's out, but on music that I personally love and listen to.

With that said, my first post is on Corinne Bailey Rae. At the beginning of the year I posted the first single off her new album "The Sea". Well now I'm posting her second single "Closer"...



...the minute I heard this song on the radio I went to find and buy the new album. I LOVE it! Every song makes me feel something. its so rare these days to listen to an artist that makes u feel like doing more than drinking, smoking, or having sex. Corinne makes you wanna fall in love again even after you've been hurt. She makes you wanna live life and experience it for what it is...that's all I need right now.


...until next time....

Basketball Wives...

So this is VH1's latest...

VH1 TV Shows | Music Videos | Celebrity Photos | News & Gossip

Def looks liek something I'ma watch...I just have 1 question tho...why is only 1 of them a "wife"???? 1 is a fiancee...but all the others are ex's, babymommas and hos...hmmmmm...

One Thing I Really Can't Stand...

...is when a person complains, and complain, AND COMPLAINS about the same daggone thing over and over again...but does nothing to change/stop it from happening over and over again!

Here's a hint...if it happens to you once maybe two or three times...it's their fault

...but if its been happening for years...thats on you...STAND UP FOR YOUSELF!


...Just needed to vent.

Catharsis...

With age comes knowledge and with knowledge comes change....



I feel like life is taking me on an incredible journey of thought right now that is beyond any type constant recognition...if that makes any sense. I think that I am now learning/seeing/experiencing everything through different eyes. I see people for what they are and treat them accordingly. I see those that support me and love me and I see past the fake. I sadly feel that my biggest supporters in my life have passed on...but that doesn't mean that I'm not thankful to those that are trying their best to support me.

I've stopped trying to see more of people than they are willing to offer because I've found that to be frustrating and hurtful on my end. I'm taking people at the value they are offering themselves as. I feel that in certain situations I am too giving of myself only to have people be upset b/c I didn't do what they wanted me to do....yet they asked me to do it because they couldn't. I'm leaening that the older me, the more experienced and voiced me isn't as well recieved the quieter underage me that I was before. And that's finally ok with me. Because 1 thing my two biggest supporters taught me was to always love me. And I do.

...hope this made sense to someone other than myself.